I Feel Sometimes..

I feel sometimes that my creativity is diminishing,
I see new people, with their talent,
their immerse engrossing talent,
and I am mesmerised,
but a little scared;
too.
I think it’s my lowered self confidence,
or my tiny self esteem knocking me back in the stomach,
twisting my intestine, begging for my courage to show up.
I really don’t know what I am afraid off.
The people?
My friends?
My family?
Or my own self?
I feel sometimes that this insecurity is just in my head,
that this Wallflower will bloom not just in early springs,
but anytime,
vanishing my existence.

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99 thoughts on “I Feel Sometimes..

  1. Priya, there is Robert Bly the poet, and there is Robert Bly the poetry critic. “American Poetry” is a collection of his columns when he was the poetry critic of the New Yorker Magazine. His columns are the most inspirational writings about poetry I’ve ever seen. The way he talks about poetry first fuels the heart and mind, then sets both on fire. If you want to read Robert Bly the poet, that’s cool, but Robert Bly the critic is the one who will get you back into writing poems.

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  2. Yes. I’m sorry for your lose. I know how it feels to lose a close person. I lost my grandmother last year and it was devastating. I am trying to look with your point of view and I see fears. I am afraid too, but we both are sailing in the same boat ☺️ I wish you to continue flowing magic with words. 🙂

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  3. Yes, true. I figured out that my competition is not others, but I, myself. We have to get better than we were before. Learning more and getting better is what we shall call success.

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  4. What a beautiful way to say it…I think the grief of loosing someone we love is awfully hard to deal with…yes but I also believe creativity, in art or words can heal the sore hearts..It soothes the ache and at the same time urges us to create. Sometimes I think to myself I wonder what my dad would think about this poem…It makes me strive for the best I can create…And I have to say some of the poems are o.k. and others hit the spot…it somehow melts the fears I have when I’m feeling sad. Do you know what I mean?

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  5. I know it’s hard to believe but I am about to graduate college 😃
    Well, aren’t we all lucky that we’ve got such a nice platform to express ourselves, where people support you instead of belittling you.

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  6. Yes, indeed. Sometimes it’s hard to express ourselves with words. I remember I read this poetry by Pam Ayres, ” Oh, I Wish I’d Looked After Me Teeth” in highschool, there the Poet changed the spelling of ‘Amalgamation’ to ‘Amalgumation’ to emphasize on the teeth.
    It still strikes me every time I use a word I am not supposed to use. The whole point is of expressions, nothing else.

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  7. Yes, this is the best place on social media! No, it’s not at all hard to believe you are graduating, given your gift for expression. Congratulations! Sorry if what I said before offended you. It’s a reflection of my age, not yours.

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  8. Absolutely beautiful and relatable. Just remember how unique you are. No one can ever fill the shoes you’re wearing. So keep writing how YOU want to. This piece particularly inspired me because the Can’t myself out or feel not good enough. I’m sharing this with you and myself WE ARE UNIQUE‼️‼️

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  9. For me it’s a bizarre mix of fear of failure/success.

    Here’s a quote:

    ‘When you start out, you have to deal with the problems of failure. You need to be thick-skinned. The things I did because I was excited and wanted to see them exist in reality have never let me down, and I’ve never regretted the time I spent on any of them.
    ….
    I hope you’ll make mistakes. If you make mistakes, it means you’re out there doing something
    ….
    The one thing that you have that nobody else has, is you … your voice, your mind, your story, your vision. So write and draw, and build and play, and dance and live, as only you can. Do what only you can do best, make good art. Make it on the bad days. Make it on the good days too.’
    – Neil Gaiman

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  10. Hello my dear Priya! So wonderful to see you here. Thanks for sharing 🙏
    So beautifully written, very expressive and inspiring. You inspire others to open up through your transparency .
    It is ultimately is linked to your creativity. I am so glad your back and to know your fine. I checked in on you.
    Yonnie💜🙏🌸🤗

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  11. Your creativity and writing will ebb and flow hour by hour and week by week. Write when you are inspired. Don’t write when you are not. Write what you can when you can, then come back to it later. Don’t get caught in a down moment. It will cycle back around.

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  12. Yeah, you are right. There are times when I feel like writing and I just grab pen and paper and jot my thoughts down. But sometimes it’s so horrifying that I stare at the blank screen for hours and nothing comes out

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  13. The potential of one’s capabilities shouldn’t be camparitive, instead inspiring.. just see world is moving.. if possible learn.. or let others learn from you.. the writing is one .. without which this world couldn’t evolve.. cause every generations works and invention, no matter what..everything is documented.. cause peole written it.. so i say.. if some one is trying to write and inspire one.. and for one in future.. that’s great achievement.. so keep writing… ✌✌💛

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  14. Oh my god, thank you for this. I was with a friend today evening, listening to his problems, of how he is procrastinating all the time and regretting. I’ll definitely tell him about you. 🙂

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  15. Thank you for the advice. Well, I do keep a notebook and a pencil with me all the time, and if I don’t have anything to scribble on, I type it out in my phone, thanks to technology. My ideas are not lost.

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